My Sunday was super rough - I woke up with my period two days early with excruciating cramps with a swollen, aching wisdom tooth growing in. Not fun at all! My brother was really good with me though and sent his friend off to take him to the store to buy me some things.

This morning a white spider attacked me in the bedroom twice so I asked Joe (brother) to switch with me so I took the air mattress and finally fell asleep around 3am. The AC was left on and the blinds to the balcony were left open, so I was woken up at 5:20ish by the sunrise and the freezing cold atmosphere. Then my allergies acted up, so I've been awake ever since! I had a nice day with my close friend Amanda at her college meeting everyone, but boy am I tired.

A tired me! I don't know why there are black dots randomly all over my face.

From my balcony. I went outside to get some air around 7a when my allergies were getting out of hand.

I took a walk, too.

Happy Memorial Day, everyone! Thank you to all the service men and women past, present, and future who have served, currently serve, and will serve our country. It's a blessing and I'm so grateful for the daily sacrifices these brave individuals had/do/will make. Make sure you thank those you know who are courageous and fighting for everything we take for granted.

I'm a Christian so normally I got to church on Sundays but tonight I was short of a ride. Even so, that doesn't mean that I can't appreciate my God's presence in the absence of being at church because honestly? A building isn't church - people are a church. Today I'm my own little church, lol :)

And I want to thank God for some awesome opportunities he's thrown my way this last semester of my freshman year at University, because often I can get caught up in the little things. That's been happening a lot lately - even today I woke up relatively aggravated! (P.S. You should usually expect God-ish postings on Sundays but fret not if you're not fond of this. The other days of the week I use to vent and share other things.)

A research lab assistant position with the Weight and Eating Disorder Laboratory on campus. For those who don't know, although Social Psychology is my intended doctorate, I eventually want to work in a facility with men and women who suffer from eating disorders. Working here is such an amazing opportunity -- I can even conduct my own research in a few years. I don't yet know if I receive a stipend yet, but I'll pray about that one 'cause I could really use it!

For collecting all As this semester, even if two of them came up as A-s. I'm incredibly thankful for that because last semester's GPA sucked for me and this time at least I got a 3.88 even if it's not the 4.0 I've been used to. It took a lot of hard work and tears to achieve this but I knew God would provide. My room-mate who, although knows how to frustrate to me beyond limits that I never knew I had, has helped me through some different patches these last few months, like my break up with Noel and a close family friend dying from an overdose. Maria disappoints me a lot, and sometimes I really don't want to be bothered, but I know that she's a good person and will listen to me piss and moan when I really need to let things go. She's done a lot for me in general over the year, from sharing her things to giving me a hug when I burst out into tears.


An amazing boy called Oscar who treats me like diamonds and then some. We get into fights over really dumb things but overall I know that God's placed him in my life for purposes that I'm still figuring out. He's honestly like my other half and I would not have gotten through this year without him - period. I tell him everything, including all of the times he upsets me and makes me want to wring his neck, and he still manages to adore me. We're not -official- yet but maybe that will be soon.

Helping my relationship with Mandee. We got close my senior year of high school but I was always mad at for her something because she was bad with keeping plans and was never there for me like I was for her. But over the course of freshman year we got incredibly close and now I know she's really there for me in the long run. She knows things about me now that none of my other "best friends" (hate that word) know and I'm confident that it's going to stay that way. I'm so proud of all she's doing!

(THIS IS SUCH AN OLD PICTURE OMG) Allowing me to maintain a friendship with Noel. I'm still working on getting over feelings for him, but that's what happens when you and your first love stop dating. He's a precious gem and I'm an idiot for giving him up, but this is what I think is best and what God wants for me. I pray every night for Noel to be healthy again (like I said, this is an old photo) and that we can stay best friends through all of this.


and finally for today:
My mom's six month sobriety. It's been a long journey.